Saturday, November 25, 2006

Something to blog about...

I stepped on poop today...

Today was really random/tarded...So I go to class late again, and I just started reading Julius Caesar(KAZAR LOL, viatrix,kitty,mandy..and even Mr.Lam!!) cuz I don't understand the way SHakespeare wrote english, or basically I can't understand Elizabathen English. Ok anyways so then the 2 gr.9 uglys come to me and 1 of them says "STOP READING THIS IS MANDARIN CLASS...PUT AWAY YOUR ENGLISH BOOK NOW!" "I DON'T LIKE YOUR ATTITUDE!"(Maybe I insulted her a bit too much) and then the most astounded 3 words that comes out of her bouche and freakily "I LOVE YOU OK?" seriously I don't even know the kid(LOL deanna I'm gonna get myself a girlfriend xDD;;) but that'll prolly be major devastation for that poor child. but still I'm gonna need to find a proper restriction order to not only rid me of her ilk and maybe stop her from laughing all over my desk everytime she even speaks to me, let alone shoot me a glance..ughhh -_-;;

I know I'm being such a jerk, but honestly I'm not gonna get my hopes up, these girls up to something T~T..........Alright moving on...
I still think I need a new life, this one sux xP...It's really weird cuz over the summer I just couldn't wait to see deanna and liz again, but when I went into IB, I sorta caught myself in a series of unfortunate dilemmas. I realized how diff we were, and lately I find that ppl around me are mood-changing or perhaps maybe I myself have been mood-changing so much that I misinterpret other pplz feelings. What a drag eh? I guess it is natural to be mood-changing. But other then that, I find that the ppl around are making me feel insecure, I feel that sometimes ppl are lying to me, I'm not the knid of person to be insecure about friend issues but at the sametime I don't want ppl to misjudge me or assume who I am when they don't friggin know me. Especially when those who know me better then anyone else pretends to like me but really hate me on the inside, this is the guilt that sometimes torments me in a way O_o;;( but then again maybe it's just my stupid mind misinterpreting) Neither am I the type to post my personal feelings out to the public, but I guess this is 1 of the only ways for me to just get this out of my system...meh no ones really gonna read this anyway, but for whoever reads this if you feel the same way then at least I'm not alone in this world. Maybe it is jsut the ppl that I hangout that is making me portray an image that I never wanted to portray, sigh a million things are running through my mind so much schoolwork and sometimes I'm not sure if I should continue in IB or maybe it's not skool, I'm just wasting my own time feeling insecure which is probably even worse then cutting myself(and no I would not do anything of such, it is indeed a waste of beautiful skin and I can't afford to waste any more of my time) Sometimes I just feel like spazzing at someone but I don't want to portray another inapropriate image, and one that is never in me. I find that common with my mother we both like to hide things, which why there is actually somethings my mom might actually still be hiding from me...sounds scary doesn't it?
At the same time, I don't really like my life, as one can see that I'm talking in backtrack circles and I may not be making any sense at some points...but for sure you would probably know what kind of mood I'm in atm. I might sound like an emo, but I guess that's what makes me more human then I thought, humans are suppose to be an emo it's the gift God sent for us to use in prominence and moderation.(or is it temperance? xD) I don't like religion, I'm not religious at all, but that's beside the point cuz the more I learn religion the more I tend to argue some points in which I believe are crap and false. Yes I am sounding harsh and please forgive me whoever considers the Bible 100% accurate.
Well that's enough about me today, I'ma go get some air...not only does the ppl around make me worry but I'm beginning to transcend in a nosedive with my schoolwork, I screwed up my math test and I prolly bombed my business test...wouldn't you agree that sometimes you could just breakaway and forget the world? ~take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and breakaaawaaay~ Hmm reminds me of 1 day in french class:

Deanna: Hmmm I think I'm missing something from my bag(or something like that)
Me: Incomplete~
Deanna: *ROFLMFAO* Now I know what Meng listens to!
Me: AHHH NOOO *while roflmfao*
Deanna: Meng listens to the backstreet boys, I'm never gonna forget that! hehehe~

Yea, at a time like this, that song may as well be one of the best songs that portray what I'm feeling right now...but no I'm still not gonna listen to it.(=P) But doesn't it sound like she's gonna get back at me someday, bah come to think of it I still have a price to settle with her! time to get my hands wet...hehehehe~

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Welcome to My Kingdom,

Well it's not really a kingdom, since I'm pretty sure I'm just talking to myself right now. sigh it sux being such a loner/loser/geek/wimp/sb you don't know and don't care and such. But for those who have randomly stepped into this dark place, welcome to the blog and I hope you enjoy thee...um...decorations? Nyeehhh Anyways let's get down to business nyehh?

My life sux, I want a new one =( my family sux my school sux to the point where I hafto talk to some loser magnet(LOL j/kz xD) k so yea. My CD player has finally broken, like the insides have completely been gutted out. Then my MP3 can't be fixed anymore(But it's prolly cuz I kept jabbing at/abusing it/dropping it) So now I want an iPod, and this time I'm pretty sure I won't be so stupid this time. ._.;;

I screwed up my business test today.

I wonder if Gabrielle still hates me. And if you ever find this site, gabrielle, please don't consider me as some butter-fingered stalker k? xP

ZOMG SATURDAY SCHOOL IS SO....weird/funny/scary/random. So I go into class 10mins late, eventhough the teachers not there, and some random gr.9 kid who sits at the front goes "HI, OMFG IT'S YOU!!" *2 ugly gr.9s start cheering* Hmmm I wonder why Deanna called her broccoli head...And then there's this kid, who apparently is in gr.8, and he's sooooooooo weird. I go up to recess to find Rachelface and stuff and then he follows me so I'm like "Are you stalking me?" and he's like "No I'm just following." That kid scares me a bit he asks me the most randomess questions. He farts sometimes too. Now back to the weird ppl in my class, asides frmo the common yet very random question "OMFG, DO YOU SHAVE?!?" Class is pretty interesting, cuz no one really listens to the teacher so yes our class is pretty noisy and depressing sometimes. It's really stuffy in the port-a-pacs too. And last sat. we were playing this really funny/tarded game and stuff, it's like we hafto make up a word that corresponds to the ending word of another(Yea, I don't really get it either) and if you can't do it within 5secs you hafto sing. I didn't make it, but I didn't sing it either. The ppl in my class are really tarded most of the time, and yes Deanna if you were to be in my class, you would defintely think they have issues! xP Too bad I'll be stuck with these nikumpoops for the next 2 years of my saturdays -_-;; Oh and did I tell you that I'm failing chinese? I like forgot everything but tech. I didn't really do gr.8 either but sorta did it in bayview but I didn't learn anything cuz our teacher was too busy drinking lemon tea n' complaining about how much we don't listen(which is true! xD). Bayview Secondary SUX =P and there somepplz that I have this sorta suspicion that they are trying to find me for the past 5 weeks, until last week some dude (Is he Henry, Liz?) and some fat kid with him(LOL liz) actually finds me in my class and then they call me the name that I obviously prefer they not but, I guess I am in no power to stop some weird dude and his fat companion (sorry for making fun of him Liz, if you care that is) from name-calling. Sigh, so much activity in St.Robz especially when the upstairs wholeway has transformed into some fobby hangout(it actually looks pretty cool) haha Deanna I wish you can actually come to school with me, you would be so lost~ ^-^

And to conclude this very un-earthly blog, I would like to say best of wishes to st.robz brave and noble proconners, since I know whoever joins procon is obviously gonna out match me when it comes to arguing xD Meh, screw it I'm not gonna bother with these clubs just yet, and reach for the top was so awesome based on the fact I was sitting in the back like a loser who doesn't answer a single question even though some the answers are so simple. Like my run-on sentences? I'm not good at english and never will be good. O and p.s Deanna mentions in one of the blogs that she wants to rape liz(a lil too extreme there d-poo~) Doesn't it give you such a good impression that bloggers like me end with such random points? Hahahaha, I'm talking too much aren't I well then I'ma go now see ya!

KingRAWR~

Sunday, November 19, 2006

If your Isabelle or is in Procon you must read...

Unfortunately, I just got yelled at, by my mom, after picking me up from C.H.S on the night of my first meeting at procon/reach for the top. So err, the unfortunate part is, I won't be able to attend any of the procons, unless I should risk getting yelled at by my own mother every time I go ^-^...so err good luck with the arguing.

P.S I get some stagefright in formal circumstances such as this, so it'll be wise if you would get someone who can actually do much better then me at debating, so errrrr sorry and bye now ^-^

Best of luck Proconners~
KingofRAWR~